I’ll come up with a title later…

Procrastination is an awkward thing. I could go into why this is now, or I could put it off till later. As with most things, I will probably end up putting it off, and this will probably end up with me failing to do it at all. The large gap between this entry and my last, is testament to my aptitude at this skill. That isn’t to say I’m unreliable, it is just to say that I often end up putting things off, and focusing on other, seemingly more important things. Now sometimes this is a good thing, neglecting my blog to focus on work and upcoming exams is certainly a good example of this. However, it is all too easy to put seemingly trivial things off, and then come to regret this, realising that the trivial things in life are often much more important than we think.

Hindsight, is another awkward thing. The idea of hindsight is one often used badly. People do not realise that if we all thought about our actions beforehand, if we really did use metaphorical telescopes to look before we leapt into the metaphorical abyss, then the notion of hindsight would be a moot one. Advising people to think before they act, warning them of what they may come to realise after the event, by quoting the importance of hindsight, is a concept dripping in irony. If we are so focused on the future, looking straight ahead, trying not to slip up, we will be unable to look behind ourselves, loosing all concept of hindsight.

I therefore have no desire to tell people that, if we always think before we act, look before we leap, spell check before we hit the print button, that we will not make mistakes, because I know that is not something which holds true. We learn from our mistakes. Clichéd as it may be, it is true. The only mistake we can ever truly make that is wholly negative, is to slip up, and then not take note of why we did so.

Hindsight should not be used as a scaremongering tool, to try and avoid mistakes at all costs. It should be used to highlight the mistakes we are making, the mistakes we have made, and with a little thinking on our parts, the mistakes we will make. We must use it to help us to prevent the same mistakes occurring again, and to ensure that we learn from each mistake we inevitably will make.

It is worth mentioning here that I am, of course, imperfect. Other than to admit to my own imperfection, I say this because you would be perfectly justified to ask what right I have to tell others what to do. The answer to that particular question is: I don’t. I have no right to preach to others, because I do not hold all the answers and to pretend I do would be extremely wrong. However, I do not wish to be tell people what to do. I merely wish to share some of my thoughts on subjects which trouble me, because in sharing my own ideas, I may help someone troubled by the same things as myself. It is very easy to judge and very easy to think a situation is easy to deal with when you are not in it, but to judge yourself, or to change the way you think is much, much harder. It is therefore very easy for me to write down ways to look at life, and philosophies for better, happier lives, but, of course, to follow my own advice is infinitely harder.

I deviate. I felt it important to remind people of what I am aiming for here before I conclude. The point that I do want to make, my musing for the day, is that we do not need to think in terms of never making mistakes, if we made no mistakes our lives would be boring and unchanging. What we do need to consider is what we are putting off in our lives that we would regret not doing if the chance faded away.

We must ensure that what we put off, what we push aside for other issues, are not things that we will regret not doing. If there are things you can think of that you should do, not the real trivial things, but the really important things in life which you, for whatever reason, are procrastinating about, you should do them, before it really is too late. Remember though, what may seam trivial now, could very soon become very meaningful. However, by the time this occurs, it may be too late to do what it was you put off.

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The time has come, the blogger said, to name this other things

Yes, it’s true, I am no longer going to be naming my blogs by their number. Partly because I want to be able to talk about other things but also because constantly coming up with number puns gets on my nerves.

I know it’s harsh of me not to let my blog get into double figures. It never got to drink, drive or even vote and worst of all it never got to have sex, but I think it will be happy being named other things, as it isn’t, let’s face it, that hard to please a personified blog.

In fact I would go as far to say it’s very easy to please something that doesn’t really have emotions, other than the emotions you give it. I think it would quite nice if life was like that. If we could wake up in the morning and decide to feel X, Y and Z, and not have to worry about the emotions such as L or S (points for guessing what they stand for). Unfortunately, life isn’t like that. We can’t switch our emotions on and off, and those who claim to be able to are just kidding themselves (or lying).

Then again, there is the theory that without sadness there is no happiness, without hate there is no love. I definitely buy into this school of thought. That isn’t to say you have to hate someone before you can love someone else, but it is true that those who have never been truly sad, can never be truly happy.

There is no way to measure emotion, we can’t express it in it’s pure form. We can attempt it with words, or music or art, but really, the emotion perceived through that is the emotion of the reader/listener/viewer, and not the emotion of the artist. In my opinion it is impossible to have two people to feel the same way about one thing. No matter how close we may think we are to feeling the same as someone else, we are unable to truly do so. This is, in my opinion, due to us constructing our interpretations of life, and therefore the emotions we feel about certain subjects, on our previous experiences. For example, if someone has never experienced death (as in bereavement rather than actually dying) then they aren’t affected by it, most children don’t think about death because they have never had any exposure to it. On the other hand, someone who has had a lot of experience of death will think about it a lot, and is likely to attach powerful emotions to subjects, that some people would consider to be very neutral.

This is the problem with emotions, we cannot control them. People try, and often fail, to do so, and often this leads to further problems. What is often the best thing to do, although somewhat counter-intuitive, is to allow the emotions to affect us in any way they want to (yes I am treating emotions like they have thoughts, as it is often the case that they appear to) and then, once we have allowed them to do this, we can move on with our lives.

I will finish by mentioning one of my favourite words; cathartic. I like it, not just because it’s one of those essay buzzwords that makes you feel smart, but because cathartic processes are very useful. It refers to the process of cleansing or purging ones emotions, and was originally used by Aristotle in his definition of Tragedy. The best way to describe it, is the feeling you get after crying, the process of crying is a cathartic one, that releases the emotions you have been harbouring. It is often the case that we bottle up our emotions and need something to spark them off, we then overflow with emotion, and normally end up crying, or shouting, or even laughing, but, no matter how bad it may seam that we have done those things, it is good that we have released the emotions we have been keeping locked away.

I know I have spoken (well typed) for quite a while, on, what some of you probably consider, a frivolous subject. However, I would ask you to  just have a think about the way you handle your own emotions, and whether you could benefit from handling them differently. I made a promise to someone today that I would stop talking about nothing in my blog, and talk about ‘stuff’, and I am happy that this blog entry definitely counts as ‘stuff’. Thank you for reading what was quite a long blog entry, and, as always, comments are very, very welcome.

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Seven Days of Seeing Green… No Wonder My Eyes Hurt

So today marks the seventh day of Seeing Green being up and active. In the first two days I got nearly 300 hits on this blog which was fantastic! However since then the number of hits has almost stopped (which isn’t so fantastic). So I now have the important task of getting those hits up again.

For those of you who use Digg or Stumple Upon, or any other ratings site, please digg/stumble/whatever you want to call it, this site, it will be greatly appreciated.

One more plea before I continue on with this post, please comment the blog! Even if you want to tell me it’s rubbish it’s still better than nothing, that way I know what people like, and what people think should be struck off the face of the planet!

So now onto the main content of the blog, which is, as ever, me randomly talking about nothing in particular. Admittedly, by now, I probably should be posting some well thought out, well written articles, but, to be honest, I would much rather whiter on about absolutely nothing.

Problem with that is that nothing doesn’t really fill out a blog entry, so, in addition to talking about nothing, I am forced to talk about talking about nothing, which again doesn’t really progress us very far. Which leads us to the question; why doesn’t he just shut up?

This is a very interesting question that has been posed to me many times before. It is a question so complex that it leads us to many other questions, some of which I started to deal with in previous entries, but of course, never finished. Which actually leads us back to the original question regarding my inability to shut up.

Ironically now, I feel that I have talked for long enough and so I shall leave you pondering that question, which I may discuss further in some future entry, although, probably I will just leave you to come to your own conclusion. Thanks for reading, and don’t forget to comment!

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I’m Seeing Six Shades of Green!

It started as a weird entry on MSN spaces, it graduated to the world of the MySpace blog, and now, my weird, nonsensical ramblings have finally made it to the big time, they now occupy their own tiny section of the world wide interweb. Admittedly there are probably better uses for websites, but hey, there are also a lot worse things I could put on here.

So first things first, why “seeinggreen”? Well if I’m honest, it sounded good and it was available, but if I gave such a concise answer to every question, I wouldn’t have much of a blog, so I will strive to answer every question in the most long winded way possible while hopefully entertaining you at the same time (if you don’t believe me check out some of the other entries I took from my MySpace blog).

If you want to get all deep about it… “seeing red” means getting angry, aggressive and rude. So I guess seeing green would mean being calm and friendly (and, of course, very random!). So I guess what I’m trying to say is… the name was available and I took it.

So, you may be wondering why I bothered making a website to facilitate something that I can do on MySpace. Well, firstly, not everyone has MySpace and I’d hate for anyone to miss out on what is a pretty weird blog. Also, it doesn’t quite have the same feel when your blogging on someone else’s website. Finally, MySpace is just for friends, and I’ll never become rich and famous if only my friends see this.

I’m hoping to update this at least once a week maybe more. This wasn’t the best of entries but I’m only just getting started. All comments are welcome and I hope to have a more interesting entry for you soon!

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A break from the norm.

I feel like doing a serious blog today. I’m not going to count this in my normal way as that would only tempt me to be funny (or try) and I don’t want everyone thinking that’s all I can do.

The reason for this seriousness is probably a conversation I had with Mr Kirton (the teacher at my school who organises the SCUBA diving). I am taking the rescue diver course very soon and we were just chatting about various things. I was asking him about the depths we are allowed to dive to; 30m recreationally, 40m for rescues. When he told me this, I suddenly had a thought; what if someone goes down deeper than 40?

The horrible truth is, that if this were to happen, you would have to leave them.

Just think about it for a second (horrifying stuff). You are diving with a buddy (you have to) who is most likely a friend, or a relative. In fact, considering that you are presumably on holiday with this person, you are most likely to be very close.

So your underwater, and at these depths it’s likely just to be the two of you, it’s dark, it’s cold and suddenly something goes wrong. It might not be sudden, but for whatever reason, your buddy falls unconscious and sinks to below 40m, or worse, they remain concious but are trapped below this depth. You, a trained rescue diver, have been told never to go below this depth for your own safety. What are you supposed to do?

You can’t help the person, they are below the depth your allowed to go. So in essence what you must do is watch your friend or relative while they either panic, or lie unconscious beneath you, until you have to return to the surface, leaving them to die. What’s worse, if they had been a few metres closer to the surface they would have probably survived with no permanent harm.

Now this is a very rare case, I hope I will never come even close to this, but it does throw up another issue. Could you really put your safety above others? I for one don’t think I could let someone die without trying to help. Honestly? I don’t know what I would do in that situation, but something tells me that instinct would take over and I would be powerless to stop myself from diving deeper.

I hope that most people will see this and have to think long and hard before deciding what they would do. To me, if you would put your own life first, without a second thought, it’s not the sort of life that’s worth keeping on this planet…

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Five is a cool number…

Well I’m back, I know you have missed me terribly. I can say that without a shadow of a doubt, what with me being the only person who reads this, and I do sometimes miss my incoherent ramblings about absolutely nothing in particular.

I was just thinking I could call this entry, “Five Months since the last” but it’s more like 4, and that would just confuse my fan base, so I stuck with a boring statement about the coolness of the number five, which, as you have already discovered is “cool”. The question we must now ask ourselves is “what does that tell us?”. An interesting question, but really a useless one in the grand scheme of things. The main purpose of this pertinent question is to, once again, entice you into reading what is a very shoddy, blog entry.

While pretending to investigate this seemingly important question I have posed, I am in fact waffling on about nothing what so ever. Which leads us to another, more important question; “when will I get a life?”. Of course the irony of this question is that, in answering it, I am only serving to back up the fact that I have no life at all, thus providing a reason to answer the question (confused yet?). However, in answering it I end up in an endless loop of monotony which seems to be in keeping with the rest of this blog. So I will be forced to abandon this question which isn’t such a bad thing seeing as I have already got you to read this far (unless of course you skipped ahead, in which case you will burn in hell).

It would now seam that I have succeeded in wasting a significant amount of your time and therefore it seams only fair to release you with that unsatisfied feeling you get from every one of these blog entries. That only leaves me with the task of wishing to one day form a decent blog entry, and then try to think of something to trail off on…

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Four times the ammount of work, no time “four” socialising, but hey, it’s good to be back.

So yes, school is once again in session and I for one am shattered. Sixth form promised to be full of independence, wild parties and a third thing to make my list sound complete. Admittedly the independence is there, and there are quite a few parties where my invitation was “lost”. But the fact is 6th form is hard work.

Yes, we have frees, and the actual workload isn’t that bad, but when you haven’t been in full time school for a year and a half, it does take its toll. There are some good sides though. The authority is great. Admittedly the first years probably hate me, and I’m pretty sure the middle two years already do, but “reminding” people where they’re going wrong sure is fun.

Talking of nothing in particular, here’s some more useless ramblings. Unfortunately for me, after writing that particular witticism, I expected something really interesting to pop into my head, in reality my head is still as empty as before, which might explain the air rushing slowly into my ears (yes I know that things can’t “rush” slowly, but it sounds good so butt out).

It seams I have got through yet another blog entry with a virtually non-existent subject matter. It could be worse though, I could have no way to end my blog, and decide to end it with an open sentence about not knowing a way to end it….

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Third time’s a charm, third time lucky, it’s almost like three is a magic number…

It seems in recent weeks I have neglected this blog. I’m terribly sorry, I’m sure you all missed it like mad. Unfortunately I feel I have very little to write about. I mean, yes, I could discus the state of the world we’re living in, explore the ins and outs of the war on Iraq or global warming, but to be honest I don’t want to. I would rather discus nothing in particular, going on for sentence after sentence talking about what I’m going to write, and then before you know it the blog is over and I’ve written absolutely nothing.

Now I know what your thinking (yes, it’s true, I can read your thoughts), “why should I sit here and read a blog that contains nothing?”. Well the answer is simple, read on to find out.

Now of course I’m under great pressure to answer one of life’s unanswerable questions. I appreciate that most people do go through their entire lives without asking themselves that question, but it sounded much better than answering a question I just made up that no one particularly cares about blah blah blah.

The fact is that by reading this far you have already answered the very question you have read on to discover (confused yet?). You read my blog to laugh at my inability to construct a coherent entry. One day perhaps I will have an interesting topic to write about at length, but until then I shall just whiter on about not having anything to write about until I have enough bullshit to make a long enough blog at which point I will end the entry leaving you rather unsatisfied. All in all it’s a bit unfair of me, but hey… that’s life!

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“Two” many blogs entries in 24 hours…

This better not become a daily blog. I don’t think I could handle the fan mail! I think an important point to get across is that at the time all this sounds very funny. Tiredness is very similar to being drunk; you think your hilarious at the time but in the morning you regret it. If you really want to compare, right now I would have to have drunk an entire bottle a whiskey on an empty stomach to be as drunk as I am tired. The reason for this, which I sure your wondering is because of a little thing called work experience. This is basically a posh name for child labor. Don’t get me wrong, I had a great time, but when your recovering from a long term illness you aren’t really up to a week of hard work.

The work in question was at a local school in the IT department. Sounds boring but the guys were nice and there was a lot to do so it was actually a good week. Having said the guys were nice I did find them a little “ladish” for my liking. Homophobic comments, stupid mickey taking and general mucking around was at time a bit grating but it could of been worse… I could have been working in a MacDonald’s (perish the thought).

It was strange to be back in an all boys school. My second school was all boys and having spent the last 8 or so years in mixed education I wouldn’t want to go back. There is something slightly unnatural about a school with no girls, it give you the impression that they wouldn’t know how to deal with these strange and mystical creatures if they came across one. Of course I realize, this probably isn’t true in most cases, but as you have probably surmised from our, albeit brief, time together; I’m slightly random when it comes to comments…

This all got me thinking… what if we lived in a world of just one gender, would the world be a better place? Forgetting the issues of reproduction and sexuality for the moment (you can do it I’m sure), I don’t think this would be the case. Guys are egocentric, sex obsessed, competitive, emotionless, insensitive bastards. Girls on the other hand are bitchy, image obsessed, overly emotional and overly sensitive. When guys are “100% man” and girls are “100% woman” it never works. Now I’m not saying that we should create a race of bisexual hermaphrodites (that thought should not only perish but should be forcibly removed from existence) but guys, being in touch with your feminine side, expressing emotions, caring about others and empathizing with people is definitely a plus. Girls, don’t take everything to heart, relax about your looks and realise that sometimes people just want to look after the number one. If we all acted a little more 60:40 then we would all get along much better.

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Cashier Number One Please…

This woman must be one of the richest women alive. Every post office in the country has her voice and now… now she’s even doing Sainsburys queues! Well with that random piece of randomness I welcome you to my blog. I did have (what I considered quite a funny) blog on my MSN Space. But when you start an entry with “I’ve been ill for two weeks” and then nine months later you’re still ill… you somewhat lose the “umph” needed to write a blog.

I had a tradition of naming all my entries with a number. However, rather than starting again with “Seventh Heaven: Finally Better”, I thought I’d up sticks and move to MySpace. So… the first order of business was to name my blog. Of course being my first entry it had to contain this information in the title. Whenever I think of the number one i think of the pure annoyance of the Post Office Woman (who incidentally sounds just like the Lift Woman and the Sat Nav woman) and hence the blog title was born.

As you probably will have noticed by now, by blog entries are somewhat random in nature, and the point that I was trying to get across is almost always forgotten due to a particularly random tangent which I decided to go down.

I think, for now, you’ve (probably being no one) got bored of my endless ramblings and so I will draw this entry to a close. For those of you who skipped to the end; shame on you, you will now never know the secret of eternal happiness. I do like to leave with a message or a joke… I think today I will have to leave you with a question that has been bugging me lately… Why is it that doctors are so surprised that the answer to their question of “How are you?” is always “Not so good”. You would have thought they’d get used to it… Oh well, if you really do pity your doctor then book an appointment and when they ask the pointless question that is “How are you?” you can reply “I’m fine”.

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